Depression is quiet…

Depression is quiet… | April 25, 2023

You would be surprised with how many people in your life could be going through depression at this very moment.

People hide it like a paper bag over their heads, out of fear of being judged, made fun of, seen as weak, or just not taken seriously.

Anyone can fall victim to it.

And much like a mask, people hide it with a smile.

And an “I’m fine.”

Nobody can detect it but yourself,

Because, disguising is easy.

The cheerier you are, the less they’ll suspect.

But you can’t hide it forever.

Everybody reaches a breaking point.

But that’s okay. Don’t be ashamed.

There are people out there who understand.

There is love and support all around you.

By talking with others, you will get the help and assurance that you need to fight through it.

You are precious.

You are loved.

You are not alone.

Have patience with all things.

But most importantly, have patience with yourself.

See each and every new day as an opportunity to grow.

We’ll always be here, waiting for you.

By: Colleen Butters

https://www.bumppy.com/what-its-like-to-be-dealing-with-depression/

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I hide my depression not because I’m ashamed but because I don’t want to discuss it. Talking about it tends to exhaust my resources. After a psychotherapy session, I often have to go to bed, although my therapist is skilled and a specialist, which well-meaning friends may not be.

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Comment by HoDo — April 25, 2023 @ 10:38 AM

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I guess i’m lucky, since i can’t remember last time i was depressed. Is depression chemical imbalance or stutational, where ur environment is causing it. Is it a form of boredom, people abuse, or just the negative column outweighs the positives?

All i can say is find the change that will cause u to forget about depression and learn to LIVE again, like when u were young.

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Comment by zolt — April 25, 2023 @ 10:41 AM

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The pain of depression wears me out. Today, I’m under a black cloud and struggling.

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Comment by Phylis Feiner Johnson — April 25, 2023 @ 10:43 AM

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Many Epilepsy meds often list depression as a side effect. I have found that some meds are worse than others. A paper I read said that those with epilepsy experience depression 25% more than the general population. 😒

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Comment by Lisa Lindahl — April 25, 2023 @ 1:07 PM

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- One study stated that 80% of the patients with epilepsy were also diagnosed as having a depressive disorder. (But that’s patients, not the general population.)
  
  Upwards of 60% of these individuals had a history of significant episodes of depression.
  
  And 10-32% experience symptoms of anxiety.
  
  Not too reassuring, is it?
  
  And for those whose epilepsy cannot be controlled by meds, the likelihood of depression and anxiety are even greater.
  
  In fact, many of the medications used to treat seizure disorders can trigger depression.
  
  Dilantin, Phenobarbatol, Celonton and Tegretol are all notorious for this side effect.
  
  LikeLike
  
  Comment by Phylis Feiner Johnson — April 25, 2023 @ 4:00 PM
  
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Anybody with epilepsy who also manages depression should make sure their neurologist is also an epileptologist, i.e. a neuro who specializes in epilepsy. A second diagnosis like depression is called a comorbidity. Comorbidities often make epilepsy a little more complicated to manage, so an epileptologist’s expertise is critical.

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Comment by lauraberetsky — April 25, 2023 @ 3:11 PM

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Look at how for over 60 years the drug world has changed what we have been taking from using barbituates, to CSD’s Controlled Substance Drugs, where some can be addictive to some of us. Look at how many have ALUMINUM in the drugs ( GENERIC & BRAND NAMES ) we take & you never get 1 benefit from getting ALUMINUM in your BBB / Blood Brain Barrier. If anything ALUMINUM makes you more depressed then you have to get put on ADD’s / Anti Depressant Drugs. THAT”S NOT ALL. What is for some strange reason you are a person with seizures, for maybe all your life and YOU ARE a Christian at the same time , BUT you know you are not perfect ? I try to live by the chapter ROMANS 12, & the verse MATTHEW 5:48 that says Be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect. Jesus must had thought every person he met or read that verse could be like him, as he was on earth at that time. He know I am not perfect, and I am glad he prayed for me as he did to God as written in JOHN chapter 17, as JOHN chapter 15 is 1 of my favorite chapters of the entire BIBLE, which really means, Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth. You can not leave earth DEPRESSED or live here long DEPRESSED when you can know all or most of the words of the BIBLE. Psalm 91 also alone will ”’erase depression”’ but still you have to STOP all insanity of taking the AED’s with ALUMINUM in those drugs OR colored DYES you read on everything you buy where DRUGS & NON DRUG ITEMS have them in all you buy. When ALUMINUM & other drug toxins aka EXCITOXINS like the NITRATES & NITRITES, MSG’s & ASPARTAME’s takes over the BBB, forget trying to have any normal life, unless you just say HELL NO to all of it as I did for myself over 30 years ago. And in year 2000 I said NO to all generic name drugs while watching & READING ALL LABELS on every BRAND name drug. Where ALUMINUM & other EXCITOTOXINS were in anything that went to my mouth to swallow I just said NO!! to limit what fewer seizures I would have had otherwise IF I IGNORED all that the FDA, BIG DRUG & FOOD CARTELS were doing. I never allow the foods or drugs get me depressed, which is why I do at times get depressed it becomes very short lived as I ALWAYS look UP for answers. Psalm 118:8 It is better to have trust in the lord, than to have confidence in man. << That IS the center verse of the BIBLE, as there are 1187 verses BEFORE AND AFTER Psalm 118:8. Count them if you do not believe it. You would only be counting 2374 verses of total 2375 verses. Isaiah 41:10 AND 2nd Timothy 1:7, as both will also help eliminate depression & depressed feelings, as I just thinking of it, feel better already. I know too I will be despised & hated even more for typing all of this. I can't help that.

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Comment by James D — April 26, 2023 @ 7:20 AM

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In N Ireland I’ve always made it clear that I am upset, not just with epilepsy but also PTSD, as part of my kick back to get better treatment, but I can never find help, mental health is poorly funded, one year I asked my GP about the suicide I was getting into, her answer – oh dear the waiting list’s nearly a year, great thing to say to someone who’s just said they want out of this world, got handed around around various charities without trained psychiatrists, just hole your hand why you cry over your difficulties, after a year I finally managed to dig myself out and get on with life

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Comment by Miss Gail Barry — April 29, 2023 @ 5:27 AM

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- Oh Gail, how horrible.
  
  Don’t ever think of ending your life. I’ve been there and it’s not a pretty place.
  
  Two heart attacks, a coma. (Obviously I didn’t succeed.) Intensive care. Followed by time in a psych ward…
  
  As for mental health. Yes we do have it and some very good psychiatrists, but at a price.
  
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  Comment by Phylis Feiner Johnson — April 29, 2023 @ 10:26 AM
  
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I hide my depression not because I’m ashamed but because I don’t want to discuss it. Talking about it tends to exhaust my resources. After a psychotherapy session, I often have to go to bed, although my therapist is skilled and a specialist, which well-meaning friends may not be.

LikeLiked by 1 person

Comment by HoDo — April 25, 2023 @ 10:38 AM

I guess i’m lucky, since i can’t remember last time i was depressed. Is depression chemical imbalance or stutational, where ur environment is causing it. Is it a form of boredom, people abuse, or just the negative column outweighs the positives?

All i can say is find the change that will cause u to forget about depression and learn to LIVE again, like when u were young.

Comment by zolt — April 25, 2023 @ 10:41 AM

The pain of depression wears me out. Today, I’m under a black cloud and struggling.

LikeLike

Comment by Phylis Feiner Johnson — April 25, 2023 @ 10:43 AM

Many Epilepsy meds often list depression as a side effect. I have found that some meds are worse than others. A paper I read said that those with epilepsy experience depression 25% more than the general population. 😒

Comment by Lisa Lindahl — April 25, 2023 @ 1:07 PM

One study stated that 80% of the patients with epilepsy were also diagnosed as having a depressive disorder. (But that’s patients, not the general population.)

Upwards of 60% of these individuals had a history of significant episodes of depression.

And 10-32% experience symptoms of anxiety.

Not too reassuring, is it?

And for those whose epilepsy cannot be controlled by meds, the likelihood of depression and anxiety are even greater.

In fact, many of the medications used to treat seizure disorders can trigger depression.

Dilantin, Phenobarbatol, Celonton and Tegretol are all notorious for this side effect.

LikeLike

Comment by Phylis Feiner Johnson — April 25, 2023 @ 4:00 PM

Anybody with epilepsy who also manages depression should make sure their neurologist is also an epileptologist, i.e. a neuro who specializes in epilepsy. A second diagnosis like depression is called a comorbidity. Comorbidities often make epilepsy a little more complicated to manage, so an epileptologist’s expertise is critical.

Comment by lauraberetsky — April 25, 2023 @ 3:11 PM

Look at how for over 60 years the drug world has changed what we have been taking from using barbituates, to CSD’s Controlled Substance Drugs, where some can be addictive to some of us. Look at how many have ALUMINUM in the drugs ( GENERIC & BRAND NAMES ) we take & you never get 1 benefit from getting ALUMINUM in your BBB / Blood Brain Barrier. If anything ALUMINUM makes you more depressed then you have to get put on ADD’s / Anti Depressant Drugs. THAT”S NOT ALL. What is for some strange reason you are a person with seizures, for maybe all your life and YOU ARE a Christian at the same time , BUT you know you are not perfect ? I try to live by the chapter ROMANS 12, & the verse MATTHEW 5:48 that says Be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect. Jesus must had thought every person he met or read that verse could be like him, as he was on earth at that time. He know I am not perfect, and I am glad he prayed for me as he did to God as written in JOHN chapter 17, as JOHN chapter 15 is 1 of my favorite chapters of the entire BIBLE, which really means, Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth. You can not leave earth DEPRESSED or live here long DEPRESSED when you can know all or most of the words of the BIBLE. Psalm 91 also alone will ”’erase depression”’ but still you have to STOP all insanity of taking the AED’s with ALUMINUM in those drugs OR colored DYES you read on everything you buy where DRUGS & NON DRUG ITEMS have them in all you buy. When ALUMINUM & other drug toxins aka EXCITOXINS like the NITRATES & NITRITES, MSG’s & ASPARTAME’s takes over the BBB, forget trying to have any normal life, unless you just say HELL NO to all of it as I did for myself over 30 years ago. And in year 2000 I said NO to all generic name drugs while watching & READING ALL LABELS on every BRAND name drug. Where ALUMINUM & other EXCITOTOXINS were in anything that went to my mouth to swallow I just said NO!! to limit what fewer seizures I would have had otherwise IF I IGNORED all that the FDA, BIG DRUG & FOOD CARTELS were doing. I never allow the foods or drugs get me depressed, which is why I do at times get depressed it becomes very short lived as I ALWAYS look UP for answers. Psalm 118:8 It is better to have trust in the lord, than to have confidence in man. << That IS the center verse of the BIBLE, as there are 1187 verses BEFORE AND AFTER Psalm 118:8. Count them if you do not believe it. You would only be counting 2374 verses of total 2375 verses. Isaiah 41:10 AND 2nd Timothy 1:7, as both will also help eliminate depression & depressed feelings, as I just thinking of it, feel better already. I know too I will be despised & hated even more for typing all of this. I can't help that.

Comment by James D — April 26, 2023 @ 7:20 AM

In N Ireland I’ve always made it clear that I am upset, not just with epilepsy but also PTSD, as part of my kick back to get better treatment, but I can never find help, mental health is poorly funded, one year I asked my GP about the suicide I was getting into, her answer – oh dear the waiting list’s nearly a year, great thing to say to someone who’s just said they want out of this world, got handed around around various charities without trained psychiatrists, just hole your hand why you cry over your difficulties, after a year I finally managed to dig myself out and get on with life

Comment by Miss Gail Barry — April 29, 2023 @ 5:27 AM

Oh Gail, how horrible.

Don’t ever think of ending your life. I’ve been there and it’s not a pretty place.

Two heart attacks, a coma. (Obviously I didn’t succeed.) Intensive care. Followed by time in a psych ward…

As for mental health. Yes we do have it and some very good psychiatrists, but at a price.

LikeLike

Comment by Phylis Feiner Johnson — April 29, 2023 @ 10:26 AM

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